I’m a geeky Bible nerd girl. I love the minutiae of scripture. The beginning of a new journey in scripture is exciting to me. I like the anticipation of what God will teach me through His Word and the expectation of all that the journey has in store for me. And I absolutely can’t wait for that Aha moment when clarity and understanding break forth in my pea brain as I discover that nugget of treasure that God had in store for me. I like the sound of the pages turning in my Bible. I like the preparation of finding new pens and paper to use and taking the pens I selected to mark His words that bore into my soul. I like the rhythm, the structure, and the discipline that study brings and how I am ushered into God’s presence and before His throne anxious to be taught. Because His word is timeless, I’m always learning something new.
I was an average student in school. I struggled with some courses and did well in others but I never felt gifted or really smart. Some subjects [hello math!] were just too difficult for me. I see myself as a flibbertigibbet and an airhead. I’ve spent a good portion of my life struggling with this sense of inferiority about being intelligent. When I first began studying the Bible, I struggled with feeling inadequate and feeling really stupid because I couldn’t seem to grasp the smallest concepts and words. I prayed to have wisdom and understanding and kept showing up each day and I saw God answer that simple prayer. I kept showing up each day to read and learn and He kept showing out and little by little, I grew and felt confident in my knowledge of His word.
“Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life.” Proverbs 13:12
If you struggle with the fear of inadequacy or failure, don’t let the fear of it rob you of the joy found when you allow God to help. Hang onto the hope and the longing to become more confident and knowledgeable in the ways of God. He will answer that prayer when your heart’s desire is Him. Just start! Even a little effort is better than none at all.
“Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the LORD;” Psalm 37:4,5
Take one baby step and then another. He wants to teach you. In fact, the Holy Spirit that indwells us as believers that the Father sent to us in Jesus’ name has been tasked with teaching us all things. Don’t let the fear of failure keep you from showing up. He wants you to learn and He is cheering you on to success!
“But the Counselor, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you.” John 14:26
Feeling encouraged to start? The study, Entrusted: A Study of 2 Timothy by Beth Moore, will begin on Monday, January 23, 2017. I’d love for you to join me! All the ordering and information details can be found here.
Great word, that amplifies the purpose of my blog, to simply, daily, seek first Jesus, and participate in a yearly Bible reading program. I reblogged your article, because it is great! 🙂
Thanks so much!
Mimi, I needed this today (and everyday). My procrastination in life stems, I’m afraid, from the same things. Inadequacy and fear of being stupid. It has made me quit doing things I love because of my fear of it not being perfect and it has held me back from going forward because of my fear being called stupid (hence the main reason I have YET to submit any manuscripts). I think at times “Who am I to talk about God? I have no right to think of myself as a mouthpiece to spread His word!” But yet, when I “show up”, He shows me those “AHA!” moments. I am pleased and honored to be a part of this next Bible study. God is using you to reach out and you are one of the smartest people I have ever known! P.S. I have HORRIBLE math skills too! But, apparently God felt like some of us didn’t need those particular skills to do His work! Love ya!
Your reply is such an encouragement to me! Thank you for your sweet words. We just need each other, don’t we? Love you too!